Party of Five

'cos I think I ate the whole world over the weekend.

After 2 weeks of being 'into' a new way of eating, the first week I was brilliant, the second I began to slip a little, this weekend at my friends birthday party I ate pretty much everything with unashamed abandon including a great big slab of choc cake (lovely btw Sharon - did you make it yourself asks SR?)

Baby Pip is not conforming to required sleep pattern so I am currently letting him cry for a bit to tire him out. Once he starts making retching sounds I'll go in! We go to Kings College Hospital tomorrow with him for an untrasound and check up. Hopefully he'll be given the all clear.

ok, pathetic retching sounds are emanating from his bedroom, time to do the ironing whilst rocking a baby in his chair- an acquired skill but very useful.

I wonder how much I can type or how many photos I can include with Pip (all 11 wriggly months of him) on my lap?
well one sentence at least, he's currently trying to decimate a postcard which he is enjoying to the full despite just having had his lunch.
I went back to the gym today (hang on post card has been lost - it's ok postcard & kids scissors retrieved- should have longer). I was very disappointed, I thought I would have retained the minimal fitness I was nearly at 2 months ago without having to expend any energy at all. Sadly this is not the case am I am going to have to haul ass for some considerable time before any benefit is revealed (to me or anyone else).
I did download the army fit programme and it seems I am not fit enought to even do the conditioning pre-programme. God how sad is that?
Here's a programme called Couch to 5k Running plan - it looks doable. I need firm goals otherwise I cave in and give up. I don't have a backbone of steel and a will of iron, well not yet anyway.
The baby is now stocktaking the paper w have stored underneath the desk, I'd better deal with that before it's all dribbled on and screwed up.

This is the second day of my no sweeties,no cake,no choc,no biscuit,no bread and obviously I've lost 25 stone (read Kirsty W's blog - she is so funny with her gym/weight thing). I'm finding it tough, but got so incredibly depressed on Wednesday about my willpower, weight, fitness, thought of dying young that I felt I had to buck up my ideas and stop fannying about.
I've started a food diary where I am writing down everything I eat. It is so easy to forget the odd biscuit here, the odd packet of crisps there. It's so easy to lie to yourself about what in reality you do eat. My double standards are breathtaking, I deny my children certain treats and snacks as I don't want them to grow up to be chubby like I did, yet this is what happened to me as a child and it turned me into a secretive eater. If you spent the day with me you'd say I ate ok, but what you don't see is the secretive eating. It's dreadful, not excessive but the denial and hiding feeds the habit.
I had such a complicated relationship with my parents, built on control, lack of praise, secrets, lies, selfishness - all on both sides, no wonder they don't want anything to do with me and no wonder I don't want anything to do with them. My mother hated food, she would have been happy with a food pill 3 times a day. My father loved food, loved snacking and always seemed to busy himself by making something to eat. I take after my father in most respects and that drove my mother crazy and she tried her hardest to limit what I ate, but given my psyche it just drove me to eat in secret. Go figure!
I plan to use the playing card journal thing that Emily F is doing to track how I am doing.I was even toying with the idea of getting up at 6am and going for a walk/jog. Naturally I didn't actually do it but I have thought about it for a long time and maybe I should try it? am going to download the armyfit thing and see if that would fit in with my lifestyle of sitting on the sofa all day.
And what started this off? Cathy Z of course and this post here.
I am going to sort out my embellishments now - plan to chuck the rubbish and colour code the rest - if it works for Stacy Julian then it'll work for me.
Am also knitting - major RSI but oh Marja that Debbie Bliss wool you sent is divine to knit with (although a bit of a bugger to cast on cable wise). Am dropping stitches but don't care - chaos knitting, it could be the new black.

I am going to publish this but will take some pics and load them later of a finished bunny, a part way through hat and a little baby boy who is cute but is challenged sleepwise at the moment.

http://www.creatingkeepsakes.com/videos/index.ihtml?idx=82
I made a ton of these when Munch was christened, did it slightly differently, but this was is actually better. Excellent way of using up old patterned paper that you are not going to scrap with.

it was very wet and muddy on saturday.